I so hate my life... =(...
Came back from watching the Clone Wars and burning session... Then got into a talk about personal matters with my grandparents... My life is in such a mess... A huge total mess... I don't wanna try to sound like a bitch, but I've got to blog about this, I do hope only the people I trust can tell me what to do.
Reached home, went up to my grandparents, had dinner. Talked to them over it. They were telling me to be discplined, not to make my mother worry and stuff like that. Then I started off with my side of the story. They made my mother sound like some sad woman with a screwed up life, which I do think it is. My mom is divorced and has single handedly brought me up. That is something I respect.
I am at the point of life where it is the breaking point of my family. My side of the story was simple, I am not happy with my mom's religion. Do you have any idea how freaky it is to come home to a mom who is behaving like a lunatic facing a open cabinet with a scripture in it chanting non-stop. It's just down right freaky. I have this fear of coming home nowadays with that strange cabinet. My mom is now nagging about me going out too late during weekdays, and weekends, and not coming home and stuff like that.
This is the whole reason why I stay out and do not bother about the people in my house anymore. I cannot take it when people do freaky stuff in my house and with me knowing it. I spoke to my Granny about drinking, and she said that my mom is good at holding her liquor. I asked her and she said it was about knowing your limits...
I am
very lucky to have a girlfriend like Esther. Esther, I thank you for your company with me and helping me to live through with a life like this... Thanks... =) Love ya'.
If you have any advice, please tell me... Thank You For Reading about my life... I so want to wish to
Stay Free From Misery.
Monday, August 22, 2005 at 11:19 PM